A Real Fight. BUT...I Was Never Alone.

Being a Christian woman, I have heard time and time again to watch out for the attacks of the enemy. How Ephesians tells us how to prepare for, and handle the attacks when they come. But I never really understood this. Yes, I have experienced the daily darts of the enemy, but never a full blown attack as I did yesterday. And it was such an experience that I have to share it...as well as have it here, as a reminder, of just how REAL the enemy is...(as if I will EVER forget it!!!!)



090110. A sequence of numbers that I will never forget. 09/01/10. A date I will never forget. As I look back over how this could have happened to me or WHY this could have happened to me, I am left praying for a revelation from our Father. And maybe I will never get one, other than...”I will NEVER let go of you!” Because I know for a fact yesterday, JESUS HIMSELF had me in HIS HANDS.



The last few days had been wonderful days, filled with praise and worship. With two business ideas preparing to be birthed, ways were being opened for me, structure was being set, and FEAR was being over-come. On top of that, I had been doing Bible reading with my office assistant (who was raised under another belief), and the day before (08-31-10), she actually asked me if I would pray with her for a revelation of who God was and understanding. Which we held hands, and I prayed with and for her. And it was a wonderful feeling knowing God was hearing our prayers ans she was in search of “SALVATION”. That evening I went home, as I was preparing dinner and listening to one of my favorite Pastors, he was peaching about how we are to put on the whole amour, and to STAND. He kept saying “Stand”.



Then, the very next morning, it was as if I was on the TOP of the enemy's hit list!!! And with out describing all of the things I was going through, I want to describe it “mentally”. It started by a harassing and pressing phone call. And when I received the phone call, it was as if I had been pulled into a spiritual hell, with demons determined to get me to end my life. I remember thinking “Oh my goodness, how can I do this? I can't do this!!! I might as well just end my life!!!” Then I remember asking...”Why is this happening??? Lord, what is happening to me???” And all the time I am driving around town, deciding if I am going home to end my life. My thoughts were...”I might as well end my life now. But will I go to heaven???” And when I started thinking about Heaven...my thoughts went to...”Lord help me!!!!! What is going on???? Then I remembered what the Pastor said the night before...we have to STAND! So I started to pray,... LORD, Help me stand!!!!” And this battle went on for over an hour, with me driving around, fighting the thoughts that were leading me to end my life.



THEN. I returned to my office. Thinking I was going to pack it up and just leave, for some reason, I open my email. And the very first email was titled...”THE BATTLE IS OVER!” And I cried!!!! But it was a cry of relief. Because I then understood what was going on. For whatever reason, the enemy tried to convince me to take my life. BUT...GOD would not let me go. It was as if HE allowed it to happen. HE allowed me to call out too and understand just WHO HE WAS IN MY LIFE! Later that afternoon, as I continued to think about the entire ordeal, I read a message that said...”The pressure will come to convince you to do something that you neither want to do nor have been moved by My Spirit to do. Stand your ground without wavering, and do not give in to anything that causes stress or has a sense of urgency about it. For, the enemy wants you to be distracted from an important chain of events that will produce greater spiritual power and benefit as you continue in the flow of My wisdom and blessings, says the Lord.



Galatians 5:1 “Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled with a yoke of bondage.”



As I awoke this morning, STILL reflecting on the past events, I was so very thankful for another day. I was thankful for life. And I was thankful for a loving God that would not allow me to be taken, snatched from HIS hand.



Our daily lives are a struggle. We live in a fallen world. When we desire to live holy, blameless lives, the enemy is out to stop us. BUT...the LORD, who is our Shepard, will never leave us nor forsake us.



090110. A sequence of numbers that I will never forget. 09/01/10. A date I will never forget.



A life lesson, to be remembered for ever. HIS Grace and Mercy...Not allowing me to get what I deserve...DEATH and giving me, what I don't deserve...LIFE.



Jesus is my Lord and Saviour. And I thank Him.



S

Living A Double Life.

FollowTheSpirit
Living a double life. I'm sure it has to be stressful. Yes sir, No sir in public...But no respect behind closed doors. Living a double life. I'm sure it has to be stressful. Greeting everyone in public with a smile, but spitting anger-filled words behind closed doors. Living a double life. I'm sure it has to be stressful. Saying you love your neighbor in public, but expressing your hatred for them behind closed doors. But this time the door did not close.

“He who walks with integrity walks securely, but he who perverts his ways will become known.” ~ Proverbs 10:9

Seeing The Beauty Of Life.

Seeing The Invisible Beauty of LIFE.


What a beautiful day today. The sky has an over-cast, is it going to rain? I love the rain. So much to do on my to-do list. I receive a phone call, the person wants to argue...or are they trying to express themselves? So I let them know that I really appreciate them and everything they do. I break it down, giving as many details as I can. Wow, I can see the smile through the phone. I drive to the stop sign, and a car runs the stop sign causing me to slam on my brakes. Were they not paying attention? Or maybe they had a grandchild being born at that very minute and could not miss it. Lord protect them and give them traveling Grace to make it to their destination Hum...another call with negativity, she's really having a bad day. Is she dumping her drama off on me? Or is she needing her spirits to be lifted? Yes, I think I will invite her over for a nice evening and a movie. She signs and says “yes...yes...yes!”

Looking through spiritual eyes gives you a perspective like none other. Let's keep our spiritual eyes on today and see the Beauty of Life.

“Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light afflictions, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.” ~ 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Have a Beautiful Day today!

Sporting my very first "Holy-Tee"

I ordered my first official T-Shirl from Holy-Tee's.  And it was a basic white baby-doll ribbed T-Shirt with a simple message..."Independent Thinker".  Why did it spark majoy conversation?  And of course if ws conversation and questions from dating and married couples.  I could always tell who the complainer was because they were the ones to always start the conversation, usually with..."What does it mean to be a Independent Thinker?"  And I would leave the couples standing in their very own "heated" conversations.  It was pretty fun : )

My Darling Daughter.

Sharing a story,


If anyone has read any of my blogs...http://myhubby4life.blog.com, or are a member of http://proverbs31women.ning.com, you are aware of the situation I am going through...a separation from my hubby. But...you will also know that GOD is working as we SPEAK!!!!



Now I have a 17 year old daughter that has been through her share of heartaches within the last few years. She is going to graduate this year and head to college in August. Now, my prayer has been for her to take every negative thing that has happened in her life and learn from it. I have been a soilder on the field fighting for her. She spent one year with her dad (in another state) and really went through some hard times, and everytime she would call me, I would put on my fighting gear and call on the Lord to give me the words to give her. Well...she moved back with me her last year of high school. And she has been with me during this separation (2nd marriage). Yesterday her and I were talking and I was telling her about how God is revealing things to both me and my husband and I was excited. And she told me..."Mom, I am happy for both you and my step-dad. But...I have come to realize that I do not need the approval from your husband or my dad's wife, because not only do I have the love of God, put I have you two that loves me. I will be going off to college and starting my own life, and I want you to be happy." WHAT!!!!????? Were these the words of my daughter that was dealing with the sting of "step-parents" that could not show her love??? (because of their own issues???) Well, it did not stop there. She had just gone out of town with one of her friends to visit a college campus. And the entire time she was telling me the story, she kept saying how it was God...It was God. Now, I secretly hope she will go to a college near me in the South, but she has her heart set on going to college in the North. She wants to major in law, and she found out that this college had a law school that ranked #5 in the country. So I say..."Honey, do you think you would consider this school???" And "SHE" says..."Mom, this is Ebony's blessing, not mine. God showed up on that campus for Ebony, not me." And that is when I broke down!!! God had revealed to me that my "job" was complete with my daughter. She was now walking into "her journey" and I needed to know she will be ok. It was as if God had cut the cord connecting us spiritually and mommy-LY and was sending her on her way. Now...that same evening this was revealed to me, I spent time with my hubby and my daughter was home alone. This morning when we talked she told me how she started "thinking" and could not stop "thinking". She actually became frighten by her lack off control as to what her "mind" was telling her. And she realized it was her spirit directing her. And her spirit revealed to her that she could not do what everyone else was doing, she had no room for error. It was time for HER to start looking to HIM!!!! And I told her, honey, God released me from you yesterday. Get use to that voice and don't fear it, just follow and trust it. Because the Lord is no longer going to speak through me to you, HE will be speaking directly to you. Your journey has started!!!!"



I still have goose bumps!!!!!!!!!!

Teenagers...need I say more?

Teenagers...One of our biggest challenges as parents. As I deal with a 17 year old daughter, that is SO excited that she will be 18 in May '10, she has marked on every calendar in the house...”Legal in “x” months”, and it is driving me crazy. I am often trying to get her to understand that turning 18 does not only mean you are LEGAL...(and legal to do what???) But it means you are responsible for your actions. The girl has tunnel vision on what it means to be “legal”. This morning I came across a book that hit the nail on the head, and I wanted to share this with other parents that are going through the pre-LEGAL stage. Enjoy.DOING -vs- BEINGThe difference between God's plan for our children and Satan's plan is that Satan wants them to believe they get to be an adult if they engage in adult behavior. In other words, he wants them to think that drinking alcohol, doing drugs, and having sex will make them adults. God's plan is to teach them that adulthood is not about what they do; it is about who they are – as determined by their Creator.RIGHTS -vs- RESPONSIBILITIESThe plan your children follow will determine how they live their lives. Satan will try to get them to focus on their rights and consume themselves with self-interest. God wants to turn their focus away from their rights and toward their responsibilities.How this looks in practical terms is that in every area where Satan would want them to ask the question, “What are my rights?” God would ask them to consider, “As a godly young man or woman, what are my responsibilities?”The first step on the journey to adulthood is to choose God's plan over Satan's.So, the next time my daughter starts with being “legal at 18”, I am going to ask her “what are your responsibilities at 18.” And I am so sure this will shut her up : ) The truth tends to work that way (ha,ha)~Spirithttp://www.proverbs31women.ning.com/ invites you to the online "Secret Place."

Be encouraged to Be encouraging...

After speaking with a dear friend of mine, I was left thinking...don't you love those kind of conversations??? We were talking about does “encouraging others” ever get, well...old? Do you ever grow tired of the same person coming to you with the same struggles, the same situation? Just so you can tell them the same thing?




I thank God that we both agreed that our answer to this question was NO!



As believers in Jesus Christ, we are all apart of the same body. So when a fellow sister or brother is weak, why would we NOT want to encourage them? When you think of our 3 senses...eyes to see, ears to hear, mouth to speak, when one of these fail, the other senses are increased in their abilities to operate. They all kick in to allow the body to function as best it can. Have you ever noticed when you go to a restaurant the lights are dim? That's because your ability to taste is increased due to your ability to see being decreased and you are able to truly enjoy to “taste” of your food.



Scripture will speak about weak or babes in Christ. Would you leave a baby alone, or grow tired of a baby because they have not mastered the art of walking??? If you have a carnal heart, then yes, maybe you would. But if you truly have Christ in your life, you would never grow weary of doing good.



So I say to my fellow believers, don't grow weary in doing good. Don't grow tired of encouraging another who is in the same body as you are...Christ. Because Hebrews 3:13 says “but exhort one another daily, while it is called “Today”, lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin.” Don't be deceived. Listen and help encourage another through scripture.


Encouraged to be Encouraging...